NaNoWriMo loves me!

it says so right here in this email i got from them

"Well, you did it. You've gone and pledged your November to the pursuit of the month-long novel. Whether this is your first or twelfth NaNoWriMo, we're thrilled to have you writing with us."

uh. wait. did i just agree to write a novel? i'm insane. i can hardly write in my blog and i've decided to write a novel. ok. challenge taken. let's hope i can go thru with it!

anyone have any ideas for a 50,000 word novel? :0

actually i'm excited. i've always wanted to write a book. even tho i'm not nor have i ever been any kind of writer. (or speller for that matter!) so we will see what happens!!

mad mad mad!!!

some people make me soooo mad!!!!!!!!! i try really hard to follow the rules and when other people don't i could just bite their heads off. we had ladies night out friday night at church. i was really looking forward to it. i was a table leader and we were supposed encourage people to sit with someone they hadn't met. there are lots of women at my church who don't know anyone and this would be a great opportunity for them to meet other women and hopefully form some friendships. i do happen to know the majority of people there b/c i work in kid city so i felt like i wanted to have ladies i wasn't really "friends" with, just knew their names and kids names. anyway. i invited people to sit at my table that i kinda knew. great! there were 2 people there who were guests and so was glad to have them at my table. but did everyone do what i did??? OH FREAKIN' NO!!!!!!!!!!!! one girl (i call her that b/c she is so d*%n immature) had only the "popular" ladies at her table. all of her friends. not one new person or stranger was invited to sit at HER table. oh no. she is way tooo good for that. make sure everyone knows that she is so well liked that only the well know, pretty people sit at her table. i have since, deleted her from my facebook and my phone. i can't wait for her to try to talk to me. i'm so pissed off!!! i actually left the GNO early b/c i was so mad i was crying.

of course that kinda makes me immature too i suppose. but hey this is MY blog and i can write anything i want to right!?!!

stuff

so summer is over and bring on the cold! well not really b/c it's still hot out. poop. but school is back in full swing for everyone and so far so good. caleb started high school (i can't believe it!) and is really enjoying it. before it started we went to the school a few times so he could walk his class route so he wouldn't get lost. he is very lucky that all of his classes are super close together. and he is making friends. not that i'm surprised but i am happy about it. going into a school that large and only knowing 2 people is tough. and i was really worried about it. i mean i remember what it was like when i started high school and i knew tons of people. i would love to shelter him from all the bad stuff that life brings. *sigh* but i know i can't.

mikey has been going to a homeschool co-op for a month now. they meet once a week and we are there all day. he has science (with ms tammy!) then art, poetry, lunch (his favorite part) picture study (my favorite part) then history. the mom's are amazing and i get to help! but i don't have to do all the work. (which i love the most!) his bff denver is there and another boy named adam who is his age. they have the best time! after the first day i asked mikey how he liked it and he said "mommy i LOVE real school!!" i said honey that is not "real" school! we actually waited until after labor day to start doing other schooling at home. i am having him read out loud to me and boy he is doing great! all summer he has been reading the magic tree house books. i remember how much caleb loved them. but he reads them to himself so i don't know what he is really understanding. amazing! i love that he loves to read! hopefully we can keep that up!

and here's just an adorable picture of my boys in new hampshire.

maybe i'll get around to posting a chicken jam blog!

WHAT????!!!!

this is so scary i can hardly see straight!! yikes!! i think i'll stay away from whatever movie this is from.

i blog therefore i am?

who am i? i am a wife. a mom. a sister. a daughter. a friend. but who am I?

i don't work outside the home so i have no "career".

i am not a deep thinker, but i know lots of stuff about lots of stuff.

i don't write or paint or create anything. (except this blog and it doesn't count)

most of my days are free floating and filled with house hold duties, sometimes done, reading, playing, relaxing.

so who am I?

i still have no idea who i am. but i think i'm ok with that.

i like to think i'm a good mom. and i hope i am a good friend. i like to be around other people because they (mostly) make me happy. i love to cook, and read. not the most exciting things. i do love music and hanging out with my loved ones. sometimes i feel like i don't "do" enough. does that make me dull?

just some thoughts on a hotter-than-hades day...

Thankful on a Thursday

FINALLY!! i'm blogging on a thursday so i get to copy miranda
and do a thankful post!

1. I am thankful that I live in America. I hear people complain all the time about this country and it's politics. but when it comes right down to it, there are people all over the world who don't have it as good as we do!

2. for friends. i have been uber blessed in this department.

3. laughter! it really is the best medicine! how much better do i feel when i laugh? and i'm not really good at joke telling but i can appreciate one like nobody's business!

4. my dishwasher.

5. my kids who empty my dishwasher!

6. Top Chef! love love love this show and every year i can't wait to watch it over and over and over and over

7. winter. just detest the heat. i was born in the wrong state. give me cold anyday!

8. lasix surgery. the best thing i have ever done for myself.

9. ebay.

10. having music in my car. i used to drive a dodge colt that didn't even have a radio! i would sing Madonna all the way to work every day. i ♥ my CD player! now madge and i can sing together! :)

woo-hoo!! i did 10! hopefully i'll be back next thursday!

ms manners

i ♥ manners. and it makes me feel so good to hear my kids using manners with each other. just now caleb asked monkey if he had a bouncy ball. monkey went to his room, found one and handed it to caleb. caleb said thank you. monkey said you're welcome. it just warmed my heart. cause i know if they are using manners with each other, they are using them out in the world. (at least i can hope!)

i am the kind of person who ALWAYS says please and thank you. if someone lets me in in traffic. i give them my famous thank you wave. if a car stops so i can cross the street, i say it so they can read my lips. i say thank you to my husband. i think the world would be a better place if everyone said please and thank you. so please, say thank you to someone today.

(oh and if for some reason i don't use my manners, call me on it.) thanks!

cha-ching part 2

so i posted this and then went to my room and got down on my knees. (cause you know that's the best place to be when you just can't take anymore.) i just prayed for lots of work for hubby and for me to not worry and to be thankful in every circumstance. even the bad ones. hubby and big c had gone to pick up some windows for this addition he is (supposed) to working on. he comes home and says, i got some work. i was floored. way to go God! talk about moving quickly!! and it will start when we get home from va-ca so he will have something to do then!

thanks for listening to me gripe. again.

cha-ching

money. i hate it. or i would if i had any. how is it that an object that i don't have can make me so miserable? i am soooo tired of living like all my possessions could be taken away at any moment. i hate worrying about bills. i want to get them in the mail, pay them and not worry that i can't feed my kids. i love my husband. i really do. but sometimes i wish i had a husband who had a profession that was dependable. and you know most of the time, i don't worry. but today is just one of those days where i can feel this huge weight on me. and i hate it. hate it hate it hate it. i want to cry and scream and throw things. but i won't. (well maybe i'll cry a little)

hopefully my next post will be about something positive!!!!

2 posts in one day!!!!!

i have to tell you that i just read my entire blog. i started April 16, 2007 and i have almost 300 posts. monkey keeps coming in here asking me what i'm laughing about. usually it's something hysterical he said/did that i blogged about. go back and read your blog from the beginning. you will learn some things about yourself and see how you've grown.

i also found out that i'm really funny and a very good writter. (so much for not tooting my own horn!) so i think i'm going back into the blogosphere! i really liked it there!

Moaning on a Monday

so my friend B over at The Photog Nazi just shared her monday moan. and since i have been doing laundry all day, i thought i would jump in too. (especially since i have had my blog window open since thursday trying to get my self to do Thankful on a Thursday that my friend miranda over That's What She Said does. why is it easier to moan than be thankful?) anyway. laundry. do you loathe it like i do? listen. i live in a house with me and 3 men. (well 2 boys but you know what i mean) most men/boys don't have lots of clothes. so i thought. for monkey i just folded 9 pairs of shorts and/or long pants (b/c he doesn't like to wear shorts even when it's 99 degrees) and 15, yes 15! shirts with short and long sleeves. for caleb i folded 5 pairs of shorts and 12 shirts. given that he wears his "favorite" jeans 7 days a week makes the fact that he has that many shorts, boggle my mind. oh and for me. 7 pair of undies, 1 pair of shorts and 2 t-shirts. (there is another load in the dryer but since i put it in there i know it doesn't contain tons of my stuff) and just so you know i got up and counted all those clothes so don't think i'm making this up. why oh why could my 7 year old wear 15 shirts in a week? and why oh why do i have to fold them. not even going there with the hubby. and then there this the big thing with my washer which has only gotten worse. so laundry. i hate it. maybe if i had more clothes of my own i would like it better. but i don't think so.

life style change

so yesterday i started a new way of life. cutting out sugar and foods that convert to sugar. which makes it low carb. but not no carb. i found this book - fat to skinny- which made total sense to me. like it was saying "kay you are killing yourself with all this sugary foods you eat". and i was. so. what i like about this idea is you still can eat stuff you like, just change the product. which means some processed foods which i'm not crazy about but if it works, i'll get over it. not a lot of fruit on this plan but i can have berries and lots and lots of veggies. so a big salad everyday is on the menu. and jello. who doesn't love jello?! plus hubby is doing it with me. that makes it tons easier. there are a few low carby bread products, like wraps that i can use for toast and sandwiches and things. something i don't love giving up. anyway. just wanted to share

oh and caleb leaves for the beach with caden on saturday for a week. i remember last year that was a lonnnngggg week. but hopefully i will be getting mikey into a day camp so he will be happy.

20 things i'll never do

so my friend miranda posted this on her blog. and i thought, hmmm, that's something i can do. so here goes

1. i will never drive across the country. michael wants to but i won't be able to be in a car that long. i'm too wiggly. i'll fly and meet him there.

2. i'll never like lima beans. blech! i love other beans but lima's - NEVER!

3. i will never be able to decide what i want to do when i grow up. i've been trying to make that decision for years. not happening...

4. i'll never have a spotless house. i like a clean bathroom and all but i think there are too many other things to do than worry if my tv is dusty.

5. i will never be able to stop my addiction to re-reading my favorite books. how many times can you read, little house on the prairie, anne of green gables and sense and sensibility? my mom says it's like visiting old friends. and i agree.

6. i'll never love the smell of tar. (they are fixing pot holes in my road and i can smell it in the house) yuck

7. i will never throw away my kids' notes to Santa. i even have the addressed envelopes. AWESOME!

8. i will never understand why people get so worked up about politics. again, i have way too many other things to enjoy without having people get mad at me about who i voted for. if your candidate didn't win - get over it

9. i will never not have a cat! i love love love my cat! and i still cry when i think about my cat Bart that i had 20 years ago. a house is not a home to me without a cat in it!

10. i will never again sing at the Hollywood Bowl. too much pressure. just won't do it! (yes i have sung there. ask me and i'll tell you the story!)

11. i will never have as many friends as i would like. i've never met a stranger and i want everyone to be my friend.

12. i'll never be a fan of eggs. i try really i do. just not something i like. i guess the only way i could eat them is poached. and what a process that is!

13. i will never think about missing church. truthfully sunday is my favorite day of the week and i have no idea what else i would do anyway! :)

14. i'll never love the bass guitar. yes my hubby and oldest son both play it. that low sound just makes my chest hurt. give me a guitar or keyboards anyday.

15. i will never dye my hair black. it's been every color - blue, green, purple, pink, red, orange, and white. i can't imagine me with black hair. can you? (i think it would clash with my freckles!)

16. i'll never like country music. except devil went down to georgia. but is that really country?

17. i will never be rich. and i'm ok with that. it might be nice but i'm not willing to put forth the effort.

18. i will never go into space. i think the space program is the biggest waste of money ever. i'll take good ole' earth any day thank you.

19. i will never have a better friend than my sister. since we are only 13 months apart, she knows all about me and still loves me. (even tho i used to beat the crap out of her!)

20. i'll never figure out why i am ALWAYS putting my foot in my mouth!!!!! just keep it shut and no one gets hurt!

phew! that was wayyy harder then i thought it would be!

i ♥ weddings!!

today my pastor todd and his lovely fiance' miranda are getting married! i'm so excited!! they are just adorable and make me smile. i love going to weddings. they make me cry. one thing i can remember about my wedding is that i started laughing. i think the ppl behind me thought i was crying but i guess i was just nervous or totally weirded out that i was marrying anyone!

so congrats todd and miranda!! love you both

i made dinner totally from stuff i had on hand! i haven't done that in forever! we had some left over rotisserie chicken, so i made some brown rice, i had a small container of sour cream and i mixed that with a can of green chilis, some dried parsley and basil. i added a can of diced tomatoes, a can of pinto beans, (i really wanted black beans but didn't have any) and s&p. we will see what happens! just excited about that!

and i have to confess. we are going to todd and miranda's wedding this weekend. first of all i'm so happy for them. they so "complete" each other. really. it's amazing. anyway. we got invited to the reception. so i'm stoked. but if i don't get to sit with some of the "cool kids" i'm gonna be very upset. why does it bother me so much that i have to be in with the "popular crowd"? even at church? come on. what's wrong with me? i know lots of ppl that will be there and i have already told michael that there are some of them i just won't sit with. not b/c i don't like them but b/c they are not in the "in" crowd. i'm a mess.

bloggin

so i'm gonna try to start blogging again. i really enjoyed it when i did it, then FB came up and i drifted away. and i hear that lots of ppl are taking that route. but i need to get my creative juices flowing and this is a great way to do that!

i have 4 loads of laundry to be folded. but i won't fold socks. i don't wear them and they boys all have sooo many of them i can't tell them apart. so i'll fold clothes and put them in their rooms. but no socks. does that make me a bad mom/wife? too bad

this summer i'm planning on having the boys do lots of cooking. especially caleb. we have plans for Boeuf Bourguignon, lasagna and some baking. cakes for sure maybe popovers. b/c i love them! and lots of chopping. teaching them some skills.

i ♥ phineas and ferb. it's the funniest cartoon EVER!!

oh and here is jared, the youth pastor at our church. he is probably the most hysterically funny person i have ever met. (with a heart of gold) not really but it sounded good!




hopefully i will be able to come up with some more original stuff tomorrow. maybe. maybe not.

rants

ok i know i haven't blogged in almost a year. i miss it. i miss checking it to see other ppls comments. i miss reading about lives of ppl i have never and will probably never meet. but i really need to vent and this is the best place to do it b/c no one reads this anymore!

i'm old. 41 now. and very unhappy with my weight. but so not willing to do anything about it. and i try wayyy to hard to make ppl like me. and they surface like me but don't really try to get to know me. know what i mean? i am a great friend. i love to talk but i'm very good at listening too. and i like to get to know people. not in a nosy way just in a way so i can remember to ask them about things that are important in their lives. because i CARE!! but people don't really seem to want to get to know me that way. there are several girls at church that i really like. i mean they are super sweet people and i consider them friends but i just don't get that they want to be involved with me on a deeper level than "hey how you doing"? which hurts my heart b/c i am there when they need something. and i have proof of that. but when i need something from them, nada. and not anything huge, just a play date or something. nothing. i don't think i'm a bad person. maybe i talk too much. maybe i am nosy. maybe i don't make a good friend. i don't know. i'm just sad. and i guess i spend too much time on facebook.